The world is sick and today I feel defeated.
12February 12, 2016 by Cláudia
I want to spend my life making the world a better place. But today, I am defeated.
Today the despair won and made me numb. The world is sick. There is suffering, injustice and misery and it’s too much for me, I am suffocated and can’t handle everyone’s suffering on top of mine. Or can’t handle my suffering on top of everyone else’s (which really comes down to the same thing).
The world is sick because our integrity is being corrupted every time our world is disrespected, every time we harm Nature, every time we harm each other and every time we harm ourselves. Every plastic glass that goes to the ground, every toxic waste released, every discrimination, injustice, corruption, dishonesty, every time we smoke, we eat processed food… Every time we don’t live with integrity, we become sick, because our world is sick. I just listed a few of behaviors which I view as toxic, but there are a ton more. Thinking about it, EVERYDAY we are becoming sick. Everyday, all day round.
We are depressed, most of us, we have anxiety, we feel lonely… We have severe diseases because we don’t respect Nature…
There’s just so much wrongness in this world. Reading the news is suffocating, walking in the streets and looking around at the sadness, homeless people scarred by their misery, people with mental illness absently talking to themselves. I feel like I’m truly living in a dystopia.
Believe me, I want to make a world a better place, but today I was defeated. I just feel so alone, I feel like no one cares about this, no one is fighting my battle. I am constantly swimming against a current. Today, the skeptics were right, because I did nothing about it and it continued existing despite me wanting to change it. Today, the sickness won and depression stroke again. Today I felt like nothing I ever did mattered, I felt like no one really cares about me and that the Human species is evil and I don’t want to live here anymore. Anxiety spiraling, toxic thoughts, numbness to what’s around me.
I really want to make the world a better place, but there are days when the despair wins and I am defeated. But despite those, days like tomorrow will continue to happen, days when I wake up with doubled conviction, with motivation, ideas and determination to have a positive influence in the world.
Do u still feel so ?
That you are defeated ?
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Not right now, but it comes and goes you know? A feeling of helplessness, a feeling that I am meaningless and will have no impact in the world.
Thank you very much for all of your comments and for caring.
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Yes sometimes the momentary thoughts come n go.
But again they should never be persistent.
You already are working towards creating and impact. That’s good.
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Thank you 🙂
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I don’t think that we can heal the world. We don’t have such power. But we can heal ourselves. And then – somehow the world will heal on its own.
I believe that the smallest acts everyday matter the most.
You are a drop of the water that is a part of the sea. There are other drops around. Fear not.
Sending good thoughts.
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Thank you. You are right, we can heal ourselves, and that’s such great power already. The smallest acts do matter the most, I’m trying to be mindful about that.
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment, and very best wishes to you!
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There is such powerful emotion and truth in this. We can only do our best and take each day as it comes. The world will never be perfect in our lifetimes, but without caring people it never will be in the future. We need more caring people like you.
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Thank you, and thank you for reaching out. In moments of despair it is good to know that other people care. It is good to be reminded that our actions have positive implications and that it is not worthless. It is good to know we are not alone.
Thank you!
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Nature is such a simple word for how complex it truly is and how interwoven we all are within it. Every bit of love we place into an effort matters and makes a difference. Love the honesty and authenticity! Thank you so much for the reminder to be more mindful. 🙂
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Yes! We are all connected, plants, people, animals, air, land… Thank you for reminding me of that, and that we are all making a difference even if you don’t see it right away.
Thank you and best wishes to you!
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Consume less..it’s good for the world and even better for your soul..great blog
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YES!
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